I've felt fine for days...well as fine as I am capable of feeling mind you. The last several days I've been genuinely happy. Then today I woke up and just felt so off. Its like being recaptured after a prison escape and having the warden say, "You didn't really think we wouldn't catch you did you?" Something just doesn't feel "right" and I can't explain it. The best way to describe it is that its like walking around in a haze or seeing everything through nothing but dirty,dusty windows. I feel so out of control ,but I don't even know what I'm feeling out of control off. People tell me all the time that they hope I can eventually beat depression and anxiety and be happy. I've really come so far from where I was all of last year...but I honestly don't know that I'll ever fully beat this. Every time I start feeling like things are alright finally sure enough there's a day like today. I'll just ride it out like I always do...I may feel fine later today, I just never know. Sometimes this lasts hours and sometimes days...
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