January has been good so far which means 2010 has been good so far. December ended with a week of hellish drama...lots of ugliness and horrible words. I lost 4lbs in less than four days. My appetite shuts down when I'm depressed or stressed. I didn't fall apart to the extent I usually do when these things happen. I was severely depressed tho and just plain sad. I felt pretty alone. New years Eve I hung out with some of my college friends and had a darned nice time. They're a bright, nerdy, intelligent bunch of people who genuinely care about people and are all strong Christians. It was just so nice to be in that environment. So I started 2010 in positivity. I've been generally pretty happy lately. I haven't been able to shake the feeling that something great is going to happen. That I'm poised for something big. I describe it like being a pin ball machine waiting for someone to pull the knob and release the ball and start the game. Sometimes its overwhelming...I just know something is coming I just don't know what it is or when it's coming, just that it is. I'm anxious, excited about whatever is coming...
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