So Valentines Day is on Sunday and for the 3rd year in a row I am without a date.Last year my a**hole date bailed on me and couldn't figure out why I wasn't more understanding about it. I thought very very bad thoughts about him and in a beautiful bit of karmic justice he got a DUI that very night :)... Two years ago I didn't even have the possibility of a date which was probably for the best as I was in the throws of horrible depression and that's when I was having weekly panic attacks.I would have been a terrible date.No one wants to have their date start crying hysterically at dinner lol. Three years ago I went on a blind date with a friend's brother.It wasn't bad...it wasn't great. Two weeks later I had a boyfriend anyway so it was fine. At least this year even though I am dateless I'm not depressed or going through chaos or having to settle for a jerky date. I think my friend Erika and I are going to hang out,no clue what we're going to do but she's dateless too so might as well join forces lol. I used to always look forward to Valentines Day and always enjoyed it...I can't wait until I'm able to get excited about it again. I'm not letting it get me down tho...I've really enjoyed this year so far and I don't want to allow myself to get upset about things that don't really matter in the long run. Who knows where I'll be in life this time next year and who I'll be with. I could end up never having another dateless Valentines after this year...in fact I'm pretty determined that that is going to be so. :)
